Jayson: christmas

its almost christmas. just came back from L.A. with the family i was hoping to be refresh from this short vacation of mine but it looks like i end up feeling so tired and lonely seeing those other couple dating  together and having some fun my mind still awake but my body was so exhausted from the trip. I wish we will be together this christmas i love you i miss you my wife.

Mish: 3 days to go before Christmas

Time is running so fast that I can't even feel the presence of 2009. Now, it's exactly 3 days before my 5th blue christmas. It's hard to celebrate christmas without my husband and we haven't even have our first christmas together as a married couple. It feels like swimming in the sea of North Pole. Long five years and I think I will never get used to celebrating christmas alone without my husband, though I have my family here. All I want for Christmas had been my theme song every christmas. I'm hoping that Santa Claus would hear me and give my christmas gift.

I really miss you Honey, I love you. Hope to celebrate the next christmas with you.

All I want for Christmas is you

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You

All I want for Christmas is you... baby

Mish: Issues about trust

I feel so sad right now because a friend of mine feels so devastated and down about trust issue with
her boyfriend. I totally understand how she feels though I haven't experienced that particular problem (sorry, can't share the whole story) and she told me that her trust with her boyfriend is already gone. Now, her lost of trust is accompanied with lost of love. It's really heart breaking.  I know that nobody's perfect but I just can't believe that there are people (without thinking other people's feelings) who truly doesn't care if they break someone's heart by betraying trust. Or maybe I'm just too blinded or lying to myself that there are people who exists to do such thing intentionally or unintentionally. Or maybe I just don't entertain such thoughts to myself. Trust is very important in any relationship and if you lost it, it will be difficult for you to regain it or worse everything will end in just a blink of an eye.

Just be strong my friend, I know you can through it. God will always guide you in every decision you will make.

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When I was little, I was very idealistic, something like my Prince Charming  will come and save me from a horrible monster and we'll live happily ever after. At that time, I only look on the guy's physical appearance like he got a very beautiful eyes, he's handsome, he's tall and has white complexion or maybe he's good in any sports. Not until I met my husband. He really changed my outlook when it comes to relationship and love. He taught me how to give unconditional love. The first thing that I liked about him is being responsible. That's the time where it sank my mind that the qualities of a person are most important when entering a relationship. And lucky for me to have such a handsome and good hearted husband in one package (haha!). His good qualities are the reason why I trusted him so much.

"When someone hurts you, always count the good things he had done for you. Maybe he hurt you many times but he gives you happiness, love and importance at all times."

I trust my husband so much that I believe in anything he say to me, when he say "no, i didn't", it's fine with me as long as it's really "NO, YOU DIDN'T." I always tell him that he already know what is right from wrong and it's his choice. My perspective in trust is, if he chose to break the rules and lie to me then his conscience will eat him. God sees everything. You can lie to me but never with God. I remain trust worthy and faithful with you, it is an opportunity for you to take good care of it, cherish it and show me that you are worthy of my trust too.

If you lost trust of you're loved ones, make an effort to regain it, prove to them that you are worthy of their trust again. As long as you're sincere and you persevere, you'll win and deserve it.

To those who lost their trust, just open your mind, be optimistic and look into their hearts. Remember that acceptance and forgiveness is the key.


You always have my trust. I love you Honey and I always will..

Jayson: stress again

yesterday when i went to work bad news has been spread out i haven't punch in to work yet, we got the increase because the company freeze it for a year but the down side is 20 hours a week of work only. wishing always we are together my wify. like what you said im always complaining but here I am still standing because of the support that you gave me and the love that you always show me. i miss you i love you. christmas at work and new years at work again for me like what you said someday one day we will be together.