Mish: Be strong

It's painful to see my husband so helpless. He's going through a lot sufferings and heartaches right now and the hardest part is I can't be with him on times he needed me the most. All I can do is cry.

I'm so sorry for being away, it really kills me. I wish I can be with you right this moment but there's nothing I can do with it. I promise that when the time came that we'll be together I'll never let you go again, no one can separate us again, I won't let this happen again. Though life is difficult and full of problems, we'll face it together hand in hand. I love you Honey, so be strong. I'm asking a little more patience, just pray. I wanted to be with you that's why I'm taking all of this though it's painful and heartbreaking. I'm using this as an inspiration to go through my life everyday because I wanted to see you and be with you again. We'll be waiting a few months and hopefully, in God's will, we'll have each other again.

I love you so much Honey. I miss you. I'm always here for you.

Mish: Things to be happy for

I've been thinking of many things, what makes me happy, where do i find happiness, what should I do to be happy etc. Love pops out my mind and it made my heart beat so fast, I feel so light and it really made me smile. What a different feeling? It feels so good to love and be loved.

Yesterday, I watched A walk to remember by Mandy Moore and Shane West. I was so inspired by the story. The line that Jamie Sullivan (played by Mandy Moore) said "I like the air, you can't touch it but you can feel it." It's like Love, you cannot touch it nor describe it's appearance but you definitely feel it. There's so much to be happy with, just remembering my husband how he loved me, cared, suffered, cried for me and made me smile everyday is one of the biggest blessings that God gave me and that I should be very happy with.

This bible verse is one of my favorite which includes in A walk to remember :

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves." -- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

 

Whenever I read this bible verse, I really feel blessed, it described the true meaning of Love. We've been through so much hurt and heartaches on this difficult situation my husband and I have but thinking that I have him and he loved me, those pain are swept in just mere seconds. Love really keep us alive. It made us survive in the most difficult times in our lives. I'm glad to have this love and found the love of my life.

 

I love you Honey! I always will. I really miss you. I'll see you soon so be strong and hold on to your faith as tight as you can. God is always here, He will never leave us.

Mish: Happy-Sad

I really miss my husband so much. We got so little time together and now we're apart again. I wish time would come (soon, please soon!) that we'll be living in one house happy and contented. All we wanted is a simple life together, maybe God's plan is to keep us stronger before we live together because there would be more tougher and harder trials that will come our lives. I have a lot of patience to wait because all I wanted is to be with my husband. I love you Honey. I miss our laughter and playing around like kids. I miss your hugs that feels like you hugged me for the first time. I miss holding your hands. I miss your kiss. I miss seeing you snore in the morning hehe. I miss eating yogurt ice cream with you and you always have that tease look for me to buy another large yogurt ice cream. I miss taking good care of you. I miss saying good night's and i love you's before we go to sleep and i love you's in the morning. I miss tickling you in your neck. I miss our wrestling fight that you never win haha.. (I know in my dreams!). I miss our heart to heart talk. I miss your naughty look at me hihi. I miss everything about you!

I hope to see you again soon babe. I love you so much!