Monday, November 30, 2009

Misha: Missing you


Every year, every month, every week, everyday, every minute, every second i miss you.

I've been posting in my blogs right now and it's exactly 12am in the morning of December 1st, still up and missing someone, my loving husband. Five months to go before we can spend time together again and it's really killing me. I know in the right time we can spend more time with each other, we just need to be patient, be positive and believe in God's plans for us. In the next few years we can celebrate our birthdays, christmas, new year, valentines and anniversaries together. We'll make each day a memorable one and I promise to have a date with you once, twice or thrice a week, an "ONLY YOU AND ME" time. I really miss you Honey! I love you! I'm looking forward to see you again.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Jayson: good weather but a sad day

its a nice weather today but i feel so sad and lonely. I can't fill up the time that i loss already beside my wife alone in the apartment waiting for my time to go to work at 3:30pm. people said it will pay off someday all your sacrifice but my question is it all about money how about your happiness. maybe that's why a lot of people get depress so much, I feel that way i earn money for me and my wife to survive but I'm not happy at all. what a day

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Jayson: happy day

good day to all readers i just finish chatting with my wife mechiel. we went back to our memories when we were in high school and college and we end up teasing each other she just logged out its already almost 6am in where she's at, but its worth a talk for us and we are like kids and just enjoy each others company thank you honey for staying so late for me i love you miss you so much hope we can do this everyday he he he.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Mish: Happy without flowers

I'm floating in the air! I feel so loved and appreciated.

I'm happy that I live in this wonderful world, that I experienced ups and downs, tears and smiles, happiness and sorrow. I'm happy that I have someone I can share my thoughts and feelings with, that when I grow old I still have someone to walk with me while holding each others hands or maybe partying with our grand daughters and sons.

I just feel so lucky to have my husband. He's not perfect, he has his own flaws, he also had bad temper sometimes, he changes his thoughts or plans easily, he nags at me and his Mom (haha.. peace Honey!), he is very frank, he say whatever he wants to say without thinking, he is insensitive but I love him for being imperfect. There's only one Jayson in the world and lucky for me to have him because he's a kind-hearted person, sweet, thoughtful, caring, very responsible and loving husband, faithful(he really is!), funny and crazy, gentleman, intelligent, and most of all a very good son and brother .

My husband is not the typical guy who gives chocolates AND flowers or stuff toys. As far as I can remember we had eight years and eight months relationship but I never received a single flower from him . He usually gives me chocolates maybe because he knows that I really love it. When it crossed on our conversation last month (why he's not giving me flowers) he said, "I don't know. Maybe I'm not used to in giving flowers and you can't eat flowers that's why I'm giving you chocolates (haha!)." He's a very sweet guy even without those flowers, I think it's also the reason why I never demand for it and I'm not into material things, what's important for me is that we're happy being with each other and we share the same goals in our lives.

I'm so thankful and happy that God give me someone like him.

Honey, i love you so much! And I appreciate everything you showed and taught me, thank you. More years for you and me together!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Jayson: relief

start my day going to my check up and its a good news I'm healthy as a pig he he he he! and strong like a bull but i need to lose weight a little bit and looks like I'm still growing because last time I'm only 5'11 now its 6' in. hello honey how is your day today hope its going well, we need to think of something so we will be together as soon as possible. I hope that god will guide us in the right way we are still here and still strong hanging to whatever comes to us i love you so much wishing that we will be together.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Mish: Thank God for this another blessed day

My head is empty right now. I don't know where I should start.

There are many questions inside my head and I don't know where, when or how can I get the answers. I feel like a law student who tries to pass a medical board exam? Tough right? But that's what I feel. Fighting without knowing if I'm going to win or lose. But definitely I have to win.

Seven years ago, me and my boyfriend (my husband right now) had a very simple life. Everyday he drove and pick me up in school. After that we go to the mall to have some fun and pick her Mom. Every month we celebrated our monthsary just like typical college couple. We usually watch a movie and eat out. If we had extra money we go on a road trip. But I noticed that if it's our anniversary we don't have enough money to watch a movie or have a dinner date, we usually spend our anniversary at home talking anything under the sun. But it was really fun. Spending time with him was all I ever wanted. As long as we're together everything will be fine.

Both of us are like kids, until now (hehe!). We used to tease one another, fight jokingly like kids, we run around like 5 years old, we enjoy going to arcades and many things that silly grade three students does. My husband is my friend, bestfriend and enemy (haha!). I missed doing those stuffs with him.

I just wanted to have a simple life. Together with my husband, Jayson, and our little kids. I believe God has plans for us and I'm looking forward to that day! Today is another wonderful and blessed day for both of us, to all of us. It shows that we should not lose hope. Everyday is another day to live and survive. There maybe tears on our eyes now but tomorrow there will be a bright smile on our face again.

Honey, though we're apart I know that we can get through all these trials that God has given us. Soon, we'll be together. I love u so much hubby! I'm so lucky to have you!

Jayson: stressed out

I was thinking it will be a relief to watch movie so you can relax once in a while. just watch 2012 yesterday but the bad news was my cousin lost her job and we don't know what will happen next. my work started to say that they cannot give us our increase still waiting for what will happen after December 1. i really wish i was back home with my wife because she took care of me a lot she cook for me and everything. life is simple as long as you have a little amount of money to live, sometimes you try harder everyday to survive but you feel that money can't buy your happiness or what makes you happy 6 days of work just to survive is hard and taking any schedule to complete your 80hrs is very hard you accept back to back work just to make it happen. to my wife i miss you i love you sorry I'm not always there for you

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Jayson: another day past that im away

today is November 18 its almost 1 pm just done the laundry and now i have to bring my mom to the check up no life for me i want to watch movie he he he. I miss my wife so much its like 5 more months before i can go back home to my wife struggling hard to survive now and not sure how much vacation my boss will give me next year. past few days was a little busy in the hotel events and gigs for the people who go out most of the time on Friday Saturday. How are you my wife I love you so much I'm sorry that I was always faraway from you for all this time I hope someday we will be together and I hope it will be soon for us. feeling sad and frustrated because my wife is sick today I hope i was beside her to take care of her.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Mish: There's always a happy ending..

Happy ending is what everybody wishes for. Some don't know how to achieve such an impossible dream, don't know where, when and how to start a life full of happiness, love and success and mostly some people believe that happy ending does not exist. But there are people who still believe that happy ending will come on the right time and I'm one of them!

My life is great and blessed!

I have true friends who've been with me through thick and thin, I have a not so perfect but happy and nice family and the best of it God give me someone I've prayed for, a very responsible, lovable and funny husband. I'm so thankful that God give them in my life. They thought me a lot of things and shared happy-sad moments with them.

I believe in happy ending because I've been through so much hardships in my life but after all those tears and sorrows, I still see my self smiling, I become tougher and I received so much blessings from God. I always tell myself that God will not give me trials that I cannot handle. I instill it to myself and now I'm still fighting and ready to receive more from God.

I'll tell you a sweet, sad and happy ending story in my life. I have my first (and last!) boyfriend when I was in high school I was 16 years old then. We're so happy with each other but we "often" have little arguments and misunderstandings, "often" as in twice a day (hahaha!). We're like cats and dogs. Maybe because we're both youngest in the family and we only have 16 days age gap. But after we have our first year anniversary we rarely fight (whew! it takes one year before we get matured hehe!).

We've had 4 happy and wonderful years together and 2 years and 9 months suffering away from each other. That was the most painful part in our relationship. It was so hard because for a year our means of communication was just a letter and a phone call once a month for our monthsary and he never failed to call. When he got a computer at home that's the only time we got to talk twice a week on my work's day off. Though it's really a burden on our relationship I'm still happy because I have him, lucky to have him. Maybe you're asking if I had any problems with girls, I had some but I trust him a lot and he seldom give me reasons to be jealous.

You know what's my happy ending on that story? He got home last year and we got married! That's the most happiest thing that ever happened to me. Marriage is just another phase in our relationship and I'm glad we ended up with each other. But on the other hand we're really sad because he had to leave again. In our 1 year and 6 months being married we only spend 2 months and 3 weeks together. That's how life is. I still believe that time will come that we'll be together again in God's time.

Happy ending doesn't mean endless happiness where you can't experience any pain. It's more looking on the brighter side after the sorrows, trials and pains you've been through. Count your blessings and never complain, God knows what's best for us. Just lift to him everything you're going through and He will never leave you.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Jayson: Happy Ending?

Is there really a happy ending

Hi! my name is Jayson 25 yrs of age I am working right now in the U.S.A far away from my wife i got married last year. I'm in the U.S for a while now 4 yrs i got into 6 jobs already in my stay here. Lets see happy ending is there really a happy ending maybe for some but not for everybody, what i think of happy ending is if you make your right decision and make your self happy and your love one happy as much as you can because you never know when are you gonna be leaving this world. as for me its hard to choose if i will go to my happy ending because I'm in the middle of taking care of my mom and grandma right here my wife always told me i choose this because I'm here right now with them. but at the same time i feel so sad for me and my wife because we only see each other for one month in a year. be right back need to go to work